science of sleep.

i am going to be as honest as i can be with my blogs.
honest & straight forward.
so here it goes..

i feel like i have no self control over myself,
i tend to eat excessive amounts of food,
smoke more than i should & talk as much as my heart desires.
i cannot tell the difference between reality & my fantasies..

i'm in love wit a boy that hardly notices me nor knows me, but i feel like i know every inch of his skin.
i like him from everyone elses personal experience of him.
i tend to find myself drifting from reality because of him.
i'm as lost as i can be & i have no one to hold on to.
i tend to help as many people as i can, & hope that someday someone will do the same in return..
i tend to get my expectations up too high & it all falls apart in the end.
i have no clue what i want anymore..
i need some searching to do..


yours truly,
honest sharon.