saturday morning.

still awake.
i took a nap at a friends house while the whole gang were smoking, drinking, & enjoying the atmosphere.
currently i am at sarah sisters house watching amelie.
full off of chicken noodle soup & humus with chips.
i feel like stepping out to smoke a cigarette, but i shall wait still sarah is fully asleep.
i dont want to awake her.

well today was a fun day.
went to someones party, danced to techno music which was one of the best part of the day.
then just kicked it at andrews.
we all barely did anything, but i for some reason can have lots of fun with just sitting there & listening to everyone talk about random things.

i feel much much better compaired to the other day.
thank god.
i feel like i have hope again.
i feel like i have a chance to win his heart over.
i dont know how i would or could, but i just have hope.

this will work! i know it shall.
cause the difference between my past experiences and this one is...
i have hope.

im trying not to expect anything to happen..
but i feel good about this one.
maybe its just him?

i cant wait to see him in real life.
i cant wait to see him face to face.
i may be nervous or i dont know.. shy.. but i hope everything will turn out for the better.



everytime i watch amelie i feel like i should be amelie & he should be nino.
he'll take me around town on his scooter and he'll kiss me on the forehead, cheeks, eyelids, neck, and last but not least.. the lips.
he has a hobby, an interesting hobby which i find amusement in.
he intreges me, he keeps me interested.
but i dont know what it is.. we both dont know what it is.

i just hope sooner or later he'll realize that im right under his nose..
& that we can help each other out more than we think we could.



i wouldnt mind just smoking a cigarette in a car and chatting all night.
it may seem little but...
that would be the greatest thing i can ever ask for.